Tuesday, 19 July 2011

Hello from South Africa

Did you know then when you pray for something bad to happen to someone it's black magic?
I am mentioning this because i overheard someone talking about doing this about people he resented. I wonder if he is aware of the karmic consequences.
Anyway, here I am in South Africa. My shoulder blades and neck are tense and hurting. I think it's from watching Desperate Housewives lying on my belly with pillows under my head.
serves me right then i suppose! It could also be from exercising which I have not done in 2 days
I was supposed to start daily but circumstances didn't allow.
I WILL go tomorrow.
My relationship with my beautiful partner Joseph is going well. Of course there are moments when it feels like things need work and of course they do, but is there a relationship out there that does not need work? The bottom line is - love - respect - honesty and trust.
Those are the qualities i think you need and we are certainly working on all those things and they are there as much as possible. I have come to the deep understanding that relationship is a mirror. The challenges you face in a relationship are a part of yourself and a part of your parents dynamic repeating , so you can look at them . You may want to heal things in your relationship but the only true healing comes when you work on yourself because your relationship is mirroring something within you. So is your relationship with life. Its just a macrocosm of whats happening in your microcosm. But we forget, it seems. So we need reminding.
I seem to be in a constant battle with myself and questioning whether i over - intellectualize
and over analyse rather than just be - I have this 'fear' that if I don't understand then I will miss something and something could go wrong. Then I ask myself 'what is the harm in understanding something'?
I suppose nothing but there is a danger in over thinking things and missing life while you are thinking about it.
I wonder if anyone has life truly figured out? Yoga Masters? They are still human though right?
So I stopped drinking in January. Its now mid July
My aim is to also not have sugar, wheat and ideally dairy but I love cheese .
Oh my God a life without cheese? I will be like monk or a nun with no scooter!!!!