The lost angel

The truth. Is it always the best policy? Yes is my answer. I can't live with lies and deceit.
So I spent the last month developing a deepening friendship with someone I have never met except through cyberspace on facebook. Part angel part nephilim an ancient race mentioned in the bible.
OK maybe i may have one or two facts in my information wrong or somehow distorted perhaps, i was not sure??? Wrong because when i was talking to him, getting information was like removing teeth, slow and painful. The fact is I love my partner, yet a deepening relationship was forming with Raffaele that was reaching fever pitch in the emotional department. Something beyond physical, after all we had never met. Yet there was an intense love between us. Perhaps the ancient Egyptian connection from another life.
He fearlessly told me of how he worked for a being of karma, how he was a demon in another life, a vampire even, was i or he being tricked by the ego by creating fanciful stories? Doubtful.
The truth is always stranger than fiction. He promoted dark angels on his facebook profile yet claimed to be of the light . I believed him. It reached the point where i had to tell my beloved partner the truth that i had developed feelings for this man. So I did, therefore i faced losing him.
It felt like a cactus in my stomach . A big one. Losing Raffaele felt like my heart had been torn out , yet to lose Svein would mean my whole world would fall apart. One was a relationship in cyberspace , also etheric , spiritual, romantic full of danger mystery and seduction . The other was more than 3 years of intense real physical relationship that had become despondent and badly needed some emergency repair. Mouth to mouth, heart to heart, D.I.Y. T.L.C. honesty , alignment and downright attention. Honesty is just so damned uncomfortable. I would rather hide under a rock than face this but I don't like insects , and i know they live there.
So I cut off the connections to Raffaele and I'm feeling the loss. If I had lost Svein I would have been an empty shell regardless of the love from this angel.
My solace was that he had hundreds of facebook friends and could easily divert his his attention to them and perhaps with time, the pain would fade.And I cling to the possibility that had we met the magic would soon have faded. There were signs on both side that were calling our names. The signs and sychronicities were numerous, but energy flows where attention goes. Every song had a meaning , even today after reading an article on the law of attraction channeled by Esther Hicks, where was the channeled article I read channelled?
San Raffaele of course.
GOD PLEASE GIVE ME STRENGTH.
Thankfully I have a bottle of Bach Rescue Remedy to hand.Knowing that the universe provides.
Thank you.
Staying in the light and following the music
Alexis.