Loving and Loveabe and deserving of ALL good!

OK so what's been happening?
Apart from signing a remix deal , attending an addiction group for over eating and realising , for the moment it's not for me as one of the criteria is admitting you are powerless and i know i am not powerless- and i refuse to affirm i am powerless when i am not- the key to overcoming compulsions is self love and i know that i need to love myself more. I am aware that my rebellion and my control issues with food stem from my mother who has a food and calorie obsession to the point that i am convinced she is an anorexic in denial, i only realised this in the last 2 years.
I am in the process of loving myself more-
Not from ego or from a point of view of vanity
i affirm I am in control - OF MYSELF and we can only ever hope to work on ourselves. I tried to fix my mothers problems, but realise it is not for me to fix. I can only work on me . On fixing me.
Through unconditional self love and unconditional love of what is. Knowing that what you resist - persits. So , I affirm:-
I am powerful
I recognise that divine spirit is operational in my life and I affirm that I make choices based on divine inspiration.
I am a magnificent expression of love and I now choose to be an empowered person .
I let go of the role of victim as this no longer serves me.
I step into a powerful vision of myself embracing all of who I am.
I affirm I am loved and loveable and I deserve ALL good.
We have an opportunity coming up with Universal records. I have affirmed for this for many years.
Evidence that I am powerful and empowered.
Success
I am successful.
I move beyond all Ego into deep inner knowing that all is in divine right order.
I am divinely guided and protected.
I forgive and I am forgiven. I move beyond denial into acceptance and fully love all the places in me that were in darkness and bring them into the light of Divine understanding
Yes I have battled addiction, yes I have battled compusion , with sex, drugs, food , spending.
I now affirm that I am a WINNER and my spirit is INDOMITABLE and I now choose a loving , faithful, free , clear life where nothing has any power over me. I have WON!
I AM THE AUTHORITY IN MY OWN LIFE. I now choose love Joy and freedom
And so it is
I love you- truly

Angels and Aliens and then off to bed...

I could feel a presence next to me, must be my guardian angel i thought , because i had done just a ritual to energetically clear the space of all low level energies called' the triple grid invocation'.
I had come back from uncle's funeral today , it was sad but beautiful and it was lovely spending time with my family members i rarely see.
I felt very grateful of my partner and how much i am loved and how much i am blessed in my life.
Today I finished the wonderful book 'Angels in my hair' by Lorna Burne, reading it on the train journey to Birmingham for the funeral.
WHAT A FANTASTIC BOOK!!!!
I highly recommend it!
I truly could not put it down.
It was a 5 am start for me and i had another 5am start the next day. With just a few hours to go.
I wanted to watch some star trek next generation. I loved to escape into my fantasy world of Sci Fi.
I had been doing it for several years. What fascinated me the most was that the creator of Star Trek - Gene Roddenberry is said to have been visited by aliens in real life.
I had heard he had had his ashes scatterd in space.
All this was so'out there'
I thought , knowing of the ridicule i would get by a lot of people for being a trekkie and speaking about Angels and Aliens.
All in a days work ;)

Moldavite Bath

I have been reading about manifestation secrets today. I just had a bath with moldavite crystals. Very powerful cleanser. I have not been detoxing. It's a long story.
I am in a good place mentally right now.
There are many changes i wish to make.
I wish for success with the manifestation of Powerlight becoming a household name.
My uncle died and his funeral is on Monday. My view on death is that it is a positive release from the illusions of this world. Of course the sadness is for the people that are left behind and the loss they feel.
I am very grateful for my life and for my health and for all my loved ones.
The 1st group of the year went very well.
We had a guest speaker a priestess of Avalon. And there was a unicorn meditation.
I love unicorns.
So beautiful.
I had a nightmare last night about 2012. I was watching too much Alien stuff and 2012 prophecy stuff on you tube. I think I learned my lesson now. I have been praying a lot so far this year.
All good.

All is well

my chin is itchy and so my chest.
I have had this for months. The doctor told me i needed a special shampoo. I bought it , it works a bit, but deep down I know i must eliminate sugar. I am going on a month detox in jan which is 1 day away.
I'm cold, it's 2.30 am and i got out of of bed compelled to write this.
Tomorrow we are having a party. My last day of excess. My body , mind soul and spirit will thank me I know.
I'm desperate to lose weight for my own well being, I will change the word desperate to 'happy to'. My uncle died this morning.
I feel glad that he is no longer suffering. And that his spirit has been released.
May he go with God and the angels.
I bless him and his family with love and ask God that comfort and peace be with all the grief stricken now.
I am sat in the dark lit up only by the lights on the Christmas tree as i write this. It's quite a romantic sort of light fitting for love. with a capital L. Love always needs a capital L because it's so important.
I think my mother is obsessed with control.
I hope I am not.
I affirm that Divine Spirit is in control and i surrender any struggles to spirit.
It is said that weight is a control issue.
I therefore surrender my control to Almighty God and ask for help from the Angelic Kingdom to guide me.
With the issue with my neighbours I surrender the situation to God and ask for a positive outcome.
I surrender my struggles with money to God and ask for abundance.
I surrender issues with my family to God and ask for peace and healing/
I surrender issues with my partner over to God ask for divine guidance, peace and claim a perfect relationship now.
I surrender all fears to the divine knowing I am safe and all is well.
I let go of old concepts of limitation and become unlimited now.
I let go of fears surrounding my home life and know and affirm that I am safe and I am always taken care of.
I let go of fears around my health and claim perfect health for myself and my loved ones now.
I and my loved ones are divinely protected.
I surround my friends , my family and all the people I love and my home with love and we are safe and divinely protected and all is well. I send love to my fears. I send love to my inner child.
I affirm that God and the angels and my higher self will nurture me with love.
Everything is taken care of and in divine right order and so it is.
I surrender to the Almighty and all is well
God never fails
All is well
And so it is

I lovingly release the need to be disturbed

It was 8.45pm and i was playing a song i recorded some years ago i had found on a cd
it was a moderate level
suddenly half way through the song loud bangs came through the ceiling from the upstairs neighbours
I immediately turned it off. Feeling terrible , Svein told me i needed to go and instantly apologise.
I went upstairs knocked on the door- no answer.
I knocked again- no answer
I wrote a note to them apologising.
I didn't realise the bass traveled up so loudly.
We had received a letter from the agent recently with a previous complaint.
I lit 2 candles and said ' i release the need to be disturbed'
I am feeling awful like i have done something terrible.
i will affirm all is well

I Lovingly release all i no longer need and I am willing to release, I AM willing to change

Christmas has come and gone and i can still feel the magic.
It was a wonderful Christmas eve and Christmas day.
My friend Julie Anne, from America, Marcus, my brother Theo and my mother and Svein and me sang, danced and played games and ate
Christmas eve we went to midnight mass.
My thoughts now are on detoxing for the new year.
I will stay focused on the reasons why.

I am a focused person
I easily manifest what I want in my life
It is easy for me to make positive changes in my life
All of my choices are divinely inspired
I am a magnet for divine inspiration
I am a magnet for success and radiant health

I am healthy wealthy and wise. All that i need comes to me
My perfect healing is taking place right now
As i sleep and wake i heal and attract only good
I attract only good at all times
I release all i no longer need with love
And so it is

More synchronicity on the path to receptivity

The beautiful Julia phoned me today, an incredible soul that is very connected to the angelic kingdom. Surely an angel in disguise. She moved to Dubai a few months ago. I'm in Robert Dyas she said
'I'm across the road' I said:- Amazing !
More Synchronicity.
So she graciously took me to the chocolate shop and bought some very very special Norwegian water which I love.
I thought I was never to see her again as the email i had for her didn't work.
She tuned into various bits of helpful information which she proceeded to tell me.(including how my idea for Crystal Clothing can work which she had had a brainwave about). We then went to the bookstore to look for an angel book she wanted to gift me, it was out of stock but she brought some important info to my atttention , It was the bookstore where my friend Lorna works. Lorna invited Svein and I to dinner and said she was going to buy us a cabinet for clothing which she knew I needed, that we had seen together. The universe is so kind and gracious. I am learning to receive. I used to find it very difficult and was more comfortable giving but I was listening to 'Divine Magic' By Doreen Virtue on CD and the teachings of the Ancient and magical Kaballion. I now understand it is as as important to receive as it is to give.
I then went to brook green & had coffee and cake with my psychic healer friend Angela .
Then we went to a pub and she bought me a glass of port. She helped me to understand how we can use psychic energy to control our responses to things.
I came home to more gingerbread making.
I am visualising success health and abundance in all areas of my life.
I set all my mental poles to maximum receptivity and I enjoy continuing abundance on every level. I am a divine magician and I claim my God given birthright that God gave to each and every one of us.The gift of manifestation.
Spread your love
Raise your vibration.
Accept What Is.
Know that you don't know
Surrender to the moment.
All is well
And so it is
Peace Peace Peace
Live In Love
I am that I am