All is well

my chin is itchy and so my chest.
I have had this for months. The doctor told me i needed a special shampoo. I bought it , it works a bit, but deep down I know i must eliminate sugar. I am going on a month detox in jan which is 1 day away.
I'm cold, it's 2.30 am and i got out of of bed compelled to write this.
Tomorrow we are having a party. My last day of excess. My body , mind soul and spirit will thank me I know.
I'm desperate to lose weight for my own well being, I will change the word desperate to 'happy to'. My uncle died this morning.
I feel glad that he is no longer suffering. And that his spirit has been released.
May he go with God and the angels.
I bless him and his family with love and ask God that comfort and peace be with all the grief stricken now.
I am sat in the dark lit up only by the lights on the Christmas tree as i write this. It's quite a romantic sort of light fitting for love. with a capital L. Love always needs a capital L because it's so important.
I think my mother is obsessed with control.
I hope I am not.
I affirm that Divine Spirit is in control and i surrender any struggles to spirit.
It is said that weight is a control issue.
I therefore surrender my control to Almighty God and ask for help from the Angelic Kingdom to guide me.
With the issue with my neighbours I surrender the situation to God and ask for a positive outcome.
I surrender my struggles with money to God and ask for abundance.
I surrender issues with my family to God and ask for peace and healing/
I surrender issues with my partner over to God ask for divine guidance, peace and claim a perfect relationship now.
I surrender all fears to the divine knowing I am safe and all is well.
I let go of old concepts of limitation and become unlimited now.
I let go of fears surrounding my home life and know and affirm that I am safe and I am always taken care of.
I let go of fears around my health and claim perfect health for myself and my loved ones now.
I and my loved ones are divinely protected.
I surround my friends , my family and all the people I love and my home with love and we are safe and divinely protected and all is well. I send love to my fears. I send love to my inner child.
I affirm that God and the angels and my higher self will nurture me with love.
Everything is taken care of and in divine right order and so it is.
I surrender to the Almighty and all is well
God never fails
All is well
And so it is

I lovingly release the need to be disturbed

It was 8.45pm and i was playing a song i recorded some years ago i had found on a cd
it was a moderate level
suddenly half way through the song loud bangs came through the ceiling from the upstairs neighbours
I immediately turned it off. Feeling terrible , Svein told me i needed to go and instantly apologise.
I went upstairs knocked on the door- no answer.
I knocked again- no answer
I wrote a note to them apologising.
I didn't realise the bass traveled up so loudly.
We had received a letter from the agent recently with a previous complaint.
I lit 2 candles and said ' i release the need to be disturbed'
I am feeling awful like i have done something terrible.
i will affirm all is well

I Lovingly release all i no longer need and I am willing to release, I AM willing to change

Christmas has come and gone and i can still feel the magic.
It was a wonderful Christmas eve and Christmas day.
My friend Julie Anne, from America, Marcus, my brother Theo and my mother and Svein and me sang, danced and played games and ate
Christmas eve we went to midnight mass.
My thoughts now are on detoxing for the new year.
I will stay focused on the reasons why.

I am a focused person
I easily manifest what I want in my life
It is easy for me to make positive changes in my life
All of my choices are divinely inspired
I am a magnet for divine inspiration
I am a magnet for success and radiant health

I am healthy wealthy and wise. All that i need comes to me
My perfect healing is taking place right now
As i sleep and wake i heal and attract only good
I attract only good at all times
I release all i no longer need with love
And so it is

More synchronicity on the path to receptivity

The beautiful Julia phoned me today, an incredible soul that is very connected to the angelic kingdom. Surely an angel in disguise. She moved to Dubai a few months ago. I'm in Robert Dyas she said
'I'm across the road' I said:- Amazing !
More Synchronicity.
So she graciously took me to the chocolate shop and bought some very very special Norwegian water which I love.
I thought I was never to see her again as the email i had for her didn't work.
She tuned into various bits of helpful information which she proceeded to tell me.(including how my idea for Crystal Clothing can work which she had had a brainwave about). We then went to the bookstore to look for an angel book she wanted to gift me, it was out of stock but she brought some important info to my atttention , It was the bookstore where my friend Lorna works. Lorna invited Svein and I to dinner and said she was going to buy us a cabinet for clothing which she knew I needed, that we had seen together. The universe is so kind and gracious. I am learning to receive. I used to find it very difficult and was more comfortable giving but I was listening to 'Divine Magic' By Doreen Virtue on CD and the teachings of the Ancient and magical Kaballion. I now understand it is as as important to receive as it is to give.
I then went to brook green & had coffee and cake with my psychic healer friend Angela .
Then we went to a pub and she bought me a glass of port. She helped me to understand how we can use psychic energy to control our responses to things.
I came home to more gingerbread making.
I am visualising success health and abundance in all areas of my life.
I set all my mental poles to maximum receptivity and I enjoy continuing abundance on every level. I am a divine magician and I claim my God given birthright that God gave to each and every one of us.The gift of manifestation.
Spread your love
Raise your vibration.
Accept What Is.
Know that you don't know
Surrender to the moment.
All is well
And so it is
Peace Peace Peace
Live In Love
I am that I am

Less Is more. Simplicity is the key!

I have just spoken with my lovely friend Veronica in Coronado, we are a little closer to visualising or actually actualising our dream of having a trans continental metaphysical TV show pilot and possible film. we will interview various spiritual pioneers and mix it with footage from my law of attraction group i am running. i feel the need to make various changes in my life. Less i feel is definitely more.
Simplicity is the key, I need to feng shui my life.
Meditate in the morning
Eat Healthy Delicious nutritious food and beverages.
exercise in ways that are fun and enjoyable to me.
Sing more
Dance More
And Enjoy life more.
Pray more and commune with nature and animals more
All the things that bring Joy and balance to my life. Like Love.
Love love love- sang the Beatles
it really is all we need
Its the key and the way. I have been giving spiritual healing alot lately. Today I gave spiritual healing to my beautiful friend who is a walking miracle. She has 2 brain tumours. She has just had a hernia operation. She has had in the past major surgery on her head. Yet she remains a healing force in this world. she is such an inspiration to me and others too. She is really a beautiful and wise soul .It was magical visiting her today, and she read a beautiful old Christmas blessing to me from a book she was drawn to on her shelf after we finished the healing session. i also chose an Angel Card, which reminded me that my Angels are always with me. As they are with you. I am so thankful for everything and everyone in my life and thankful for my life.
i spoke with my aunt whose husband is dying of brain cancer yesterday. I told her not to be afraid and to give my uncle my love. My paternal grandfather is also in hospital with various conditions and my maternal grandfather is living with prostate cancer.
Yet I write about these not to focus on them but to be thankful for the life and love and experiences we have all shared and continue to learn from. through hardship , pain , sorrow comes the most beautiful and sacred understanding, lessons and messages. It is this I aim to share in this writing.
We are all aspects of the Divine having a physical experience
Blessings of Light and Love to you
Bright, Blessings
And Rainbows. I met with my lovely mermaid friend a spiritual beauty therapist whose healing business is based on sea remedies and another holistic friend A priestess of Avalon who runs Goddess retreats to introduce them to each other. We met at the wonderful Govindas , the Hari Krishna restaurant in Soho Street.
The funny thing was , a man who calls himself Captain Jack came over to speak to mermaid friend as she was conducting her spiritual reading for us. A mermaid and a captain. It was perfect. My mermaid friend told me that the faeries hold a secret which she shared with me.
Rainbows are actually circles which continue all the way round under the earth.
I thought that was a beautiful thought.
I lead such a magical and enchanted life. I am very very VERY blessed. And grateful.
Namaste

Upgraded & Updated

Everything New, Ever renewed and rejuvenated
A new moment, A new reality, A new life, Renewed energy, New People, New Clients.
New Money, New Attitude, New Prosperous and empowering beliefs.
Renewed Love, Renewed Vigour.
New Spontaneity. New Armour.
New Vitality, uplifting, magnificent, musical , magnetic, positive, passionate, loving, poetic, scintillating, brilliant,forgiving, magnanimous, adventurous, pioneering, creative, intuitive, wise,
strong, excellent, radiant, super charged, electric, fantastic, wonderful , joyous, healthy, with a love of life, a huge heart, open and receptive to all good and vibrating with light
that's me :)

xxxx

Magical beings from the past in the present

I'm no stranger to incarnated Angels, i seem to encounter them daily, but occasionally you have a meeting, an encounter, like today where you feel you are in the presence of a special soul, perhaps ordinary on the outside yet remarkably extraordinary beyond the veneer.
an ancient wise soul that teaches how to access the Goddess.
An opening of a dimensional portal.
Encounters orchestrated by the hand of the divine.
This abounds in my life.
In all of our lives.
Our Sacred Contracts.
Just beautiful.
How very beautiful.
I must share with you , Merlin and Unicorns seem to be featuring in my life lately.
I have a beautiful hand painted stone with a rainbow and a unicorn and a sparkling sun painted on it. Every time I see it , it makes me sooooooo happy.
I know , little things please little minds.
But it encapsulates the magic I feel connected to, outside and in.
It's not just the painted stone there are many other instances where the unicorn has been brought to my attention recently. I am off to google its meaning.
My love and light to you, dear ones :)
May the breath of life surround you with Abundance and Joy.
I am that I am.

Whirring with gratitude for the Gingerbread Mayhem

My mind is filled with the wonderful people who constantly fill my life with richness.
Who do I mention first, the man living on the breadline who has been living with HIV for 25 years who brought me presents to say thank you for all he has learned in the week that we were introduced that has helped him to see his life and every moment as a celebration, or the amazing lady from Malibu California that inspired me to gather 12 of us in a room and create a prosperity circle for her to teach us how to achieve more prosperity in our lives, or my beautiful partner for bringing members of my family and some of our friends together to bake and create gingerbread houses and decorate cards and make Christmas decorations with glitter, silver, gold & coloured paints,pine cones, twigs, and leaves facilitating the expression of our inner child while we create marzipan ornaments, golden angels, sparkling Christmas wreaths, trees and snow people.
He is downstairs recording the guitar part for our next song. The rent hasn't been paid and it's a week late but i am trusting in the universe to deliver, i have got my trusty prayer of bounty, that i need to say 108 times to manifest riches, I've done about 30, I've been up since 5am so i could do 108 tomorrow and see what it brings.
I now choose to focus on what is there rather than what is not there.
My affirmations are:
*Large Sums of money come to me easily and effortlessly

*I make money while I sleep.

For me, this IS practical.

I am taking inspired action, I did some real physical stuff too, I put 3 adverts up today 2 in supermarkets and 1 online.

I AM A MASTER MANIFESTOR
all is well.

I am grateful. :) I am rich

Thoth on the wall

I know my blog is getting weirder.
a few weeks ago i was in the foyer of the college of Psychic studies , i met a woman in her 80's who said that she knew we were there to meet each other although turns out we had never met each other before, at least in this life, i kept getting the image of a white rose, she later tells me she belongs to a mystical order called the order of the white rose which is based in egypt, this woman that can barely walk, channels Angels and Archangels and also channels the egyptian god Thoth. A week later I arranged to give her a healing session at her house. It was incredible there was a face that had manifested on the wall. It was very 3 dimensional, she said it was the face of Thoth her guide.
I photographed that. No one else has.
She showed me 2 books she has channeled which are incredible, she told me that she cannot leave the planet until this work is published. I am working on getting her and me an interview with a famous publisher. I since had a vision where an Angel and several spirit beings appeared to me and imparted psychic information to me. I know this all sounds incredible. I am in awe myself. I later realised that one of the spirit enteties that appeared to me was Thoth.
I was deeply moved by this experience.
It is difficult to put into words. But I will write more about it as time goes on. Something incredible is happening in my life. I know that i am deeply blessed.
I am very grateful.
Love to all
Namaste

Meeting Merlin

So today I met and had lunch with a friend. A man who declared to me that he channels Jeshua who is also Jesus. We met at a networking evening recently. He told me today how he is also the being Merlin.
At least a part of his consciousness is the energy that was also the magical being and wizard Merlin. I am no stranger to this type of phenomena, after all i was a member of the Aetherius Society for many years where the founder believed he was a cosmic avatar and master of the Aquarian age who was a martian being who channeled the energy that was Jesus. I believed him. so what is to stop me believing in this man as speaking the truth?
I have friends who i believe are mermaids incarnated in physical bodies, some which are fairies some are angels. Although i know some believe we all have a different star seed origin and although some people are human they are also Alien in origin or at least hybrid.
I have friends from the Plaides system , another from Cirrus, I know a unicorn who is incarnated as human. Some would have me committed i know. Sheer fantasy? That too must be considered as a reality. Yet also what is written here must also be considered as a reality. We must not close our minds to possibilities. There are things we do not know and things we do not understand. Is this the babbling of a poor deluded soul or is the writings of a wise and enlightened being. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and truth just is. Although it can also be affected by the perceiver therefore truth has different dimensions depending upon perception. Is 1 really 1 or is one really many appearing as 1 . Is 2 really 2 or is 2 1 appearing as 1. If 2 is 1 disguised as 2 . Then what of 1's energetic and ethereal body, aura, soul and psychic centres. Is this philosophy or is questioning reality and perception the inspired divine?
All things are possible in all permutations if we can be unlimited in our thinking.
Yet as mortals we are limited.
Who is to say that we are not multi dimensional beings and that there are aspects to our beings that are non physical. For me, i believe this statement as truth, therefore i experience this as my truth. Yet my truth may be different from your truth because you believe it to be so.
My Merlin friend also admitted to me that he was part reptillian. I was sensing this long before he said it to me.
So what is the truth.
You dear reader must decide.
But keep an open mind and consider all possibities for this universe is far greater than either you or i and our limited minds can comprehend.
Yet all truth is. And possibily is not. Where there is yin there is yang. Where there is Yang there is yin. Are you following or have i lost you.
All is One.
Or is it 2? Some affirmations:
I AM strong, centred and decisive
I AM divinely guided into sure decisions.
''I AM SAFE AND SECURE AND ATTRACT ONLY POSITIVE HELPFUL PEOPLE INTO MY LIFE''
I release all that no longer serves me
I am loved and lovable
and all is well
I forgive and i am free.
I transfer my pain into soul lessons and understanding.
everyone including me is doing the best that they can with the knowledge and awareness that they have.
this moment is perfect and exactly as it needs to be therefore i accept and flow with life.
I am safe
and i express ther grateness of who i am
I am a beloved child of the universe.
And so it is

I love you xxx

So what do I want?

So what do i want?
If money was no no object.
Well i with my partner would have houses in Cyprus, Los Angeles, Norway and London.
I would spend time with animals, particularly cats and dogs which i love.
I with my partner would perform , write , record and tour the world.
I would teach and hold retreats, seminars and workshops all over the world.
I would have a spiritual centre for self development and healing.
I would have abundance and healing programs that would teach people how to live the life they want to live, i would write books, songs and paint and work with colour light and sound.
I would have cars too and design a range of clothing with crystals in them.
i would learn several different new healing modalities and expand my knowledge and study.
I would develop my own fragrances.
I would play my part in contributing to the world.
I would have my own cook to cook auervedic and other vegetarian and vegan cuisine.
I would work also on achieving and maintaining my perfect weight and being as healthy and well balanced an individual as i could be . And I would be as joyful as i could be all the time.
So what is stopping me?
Absolutely nothing :)

Today- I release all i no longer need - With Love

This is my space to be honest so i will, and I am grateful for the opportunity and release.I was so moved today, firstly by the fact that we finished writing our entry for eurovision, after 9 days or so of working on it. We recorded it too. We also wrote a second song that was originally started a year or so ago, then shelved till today, and they are truly beautiful songs.The second one more so as the eurovision entry is more pop/dance whereas the other is more heartfelt and a ballad, but both are like beloved children. Really rich, The ballad called 'Today' and its full of meaning and depth and substance. so it was a really creative and love filled day.Ok here's my challenge, I really want to be slimmer because i know my weight is affecting my confidence as a performer, We gave a very good performance to a full house last night and we got a lot of positive genuine feedback but when i was on stage, yet again i felt very encumbered by my weight and self conscious. I know it probably didn't show but i just know within myself that i would feel a million times more confident if i was slimmer.

I do feel positive about many things in my life but for me, my weight is the biggest challenge in my life. It used to be my sexuality. But I got over that one, i embraced it. I have to some degree embraced my weight but to me it's like my final frontier. I could write a lot about it but i will write in affirmations and be in- keeping with positive ethos.
I embrace all my self completely and i choose to view myself with love.
I am willing to change
I am willing to release everything i no longer need, including my excess weight.
I go beyond any limitations in my thinking and in my energy and i release all criticism.
I am doing the best that i can with the knowledge and awareness that i have.
I lovingly release all i no longer need easily and effortlessly.
I give up any inner struggles and let go of the need to control.
I am in the flow.
I accept my faults knowing that i am perfect in divine sight beyond ego, as i am a beloved child of the universe.
This moment is exactly as it meant to be.
All is well.
I go with the flow.
I send love to my fears and then release them.
I release all that no longer serves me.
I am willing to change, I AM willing to change.
I am divinely guided.
With the help of God and the Angels , I Can accomplish anything i set my mind to.
I am a master manifestor.
And so it is.
Shanti Shanti Shanti

Humbled by Love , Into thinking big & living small

Yes to realise ones greatness and be unlimited and to recognise the perfection of being as a child of God, The Universe and creation , but simultaneously realising the humility required to be close to the divine.Is an awe inspiring thought. Beyond the ego and into the realms of the spirit.
I am in love with love and i am humbled in the knowledge that i am a speck of dust living on the back of the glorious and divine being, our mother earth.I am so grateful, today i give thanks for the rain, for my friends, for truth, for music, for the love i have in my life, for my parents and grandparents. For the ability to sing and share, for my computer, for words and for my home, for my bed,for the ability to feel and laugh and cry.for what money i have in my life. I give thanks to God and to the angels for all the glory and my heart sings.
also realising my human limitations and shortcomings.
But to focus on the unlimited potential. The divine paradox
Where is my attention. I shall fix it on the greatness and the beauty rather than the ugliness and cruelty and the horrors that can be so apparent in this waking dream and most probable illusion called life. Knowing that what we focus on expands.
Therefore i choose love, greatness , beauty and perfection.And also to be here now, in this moment, but to reflect , momentarily:-
My friend said today i was too heavy and i needed to lighten up and that i was far too serious , that i was projecting my need for perfection and the lack of it, onto her. I wonder whether that was her projection , using me as a mirror for her own negativity and self judgement. She said that whenever she left me, she felt drained of energy and that around her other friends she was proclaimed as a breath of fresh air. Shall I choose to be hurt by this? Is this something i need to forgive? Do i give it attention here by speaking about it? Yes but as a release of energy rather than something i wish to hold on to. I know upon reading this back that we can only perceive and attract something in our life because we are that energetic vibration.
I wonder what it was all about. I certainly accept my need to grow, adapt and change and be positive, she implied that i was judgemental in thinking that she was not happy, i smiled and said i did not wish to change her, i accepted her unconditionally but i did say that when i left her i often felt drained and i retaliated in the truth of saying that i felt she was often a negative person and she complained a lot. She agreed and i also acknowledged that i complained alot too. We both agreed that we enjoyed complaining, perhaps it was the pursuit of perfection.
I remain somewhat perplexed by the whole exchange. But what i definitely agree with is that perhaps at times i can be too serious and that i needed to lighten up more(now there was a contradiction) how very geminian of me- what i definitely agree with is -'perhaps'.Does that make any sense?
What complex beings we can be
And yet oh so very stupid and simple.
I have a sneaky suspicion i may be beating myself up here. I shall stop , withdraw and retreat , immediately.
Love, Love Love
& Laughter.
Oh what a paradox, what a comedy, who am i speaking with anyway, Now Piss off
I love You :)

The More Money I spend - The More Money I receive

At the moment i am listening to 'The Missing Secret' by Joe Vitale
It sounds a little like a big advert. I can currently smell the pink freesias i got for £1 - Bargain
They smell beautiful. My favourite flower. As well as Roses.
Freesias represent purity.
This week has been really busy. Which is why i have not been blogging every day.
Sunday I went to Family Constellations therapy with my mother. This is amazing work developed by missionary Bert Hellinger who worked closely with a Zulu tribe. The work was profound, and i felt as if it really benefited both my mother and myself and also our relationship.
Monday I was performing at The Pigalle In Piccadilly (Beyonce's sister was performing after us)
Tuesday I started my new group on the 'Law Of Attraction' in Covent Garden
Wednesday I went to a brilliant Networking evening in covent garden meeting lots of interesting people that are traders in Covent garden .I went with the award winning designer Gavin Pierre Medford i am working with.
Thursday I gave a free talk at Waterstones in putney on the law of attraction. It went very well.
Thursday night and Friday morning i was teaching singing
Friday afternoon I was free and Saturday morning i met for coffee with my friend who is a yoga teacher and Druid High Priestess. Then I had to deal with a problem that arised from one of my granddad's 30 tenants . Their electricity failed so i had to go and see if i could source the problems origin.
I could not, so i called the electrician. He will be coming out tomorrow morning. So i helped with achieving a positive outcome for them.
Tomorrow morning my partner are going with some good friends to a forest outside London, it will be beautiful to spend some time in nature.We have been working on a song we are going to enter for Eurovision for both Cyprus and England. We will do some more work on it today. On Monday evening we are performing at The Famous Half Moon - Music Pub in Putney.
SOME AFFIRMATIONS:
I am grateful.
I project love before me, so that everywhere i go, i am met by own love.
I am a winner
I am successful. I move into ever greater circles of success.
I am a master manifestor.
I move beyond ego into divine and inspired guidance.
I am healthy
I am loved.
I now manifest perfection throughout every area of my life.
I accept this moment as perfect.
And so it is.
I love you.

My time is precious

Well today I had an appointment scheduled to give a singing lesson at 8pm. It is now 8.18
He didn't show, it has affirmed for me that my time is precious and that i need to put a system in place where students pay in advance and if there is a no-show or a cancellation then a fee is payed.
I saw my lovely friend from Devon today. She moved there quite recently.A very spiritual lady. She re -affirmed for me how important it is to be psychically protected when working with energy. I will use greater psychic protection as of now i have decided. I will be more aware.
I purchased some psychic protection resources that i used to own but foolishly gave them to a friend some years ago who recently came back into my orbit and i asked if i could have them back, they had been lost. One of the conditions of the purchase of the psychic protection material was that the information was confidential to the purchaser. I feel i have learned another valuable lesson there, that not only my time but my resources are valuable and that i need to be mindful about giving things away. I love to give but in the past have found it difficult to receive.
Perhaps my affirmations to myself today will be:
My time and resources are valuable.
I am a valuable person.
I am worthwhile and deserving of respect.
I honour myself.
I am an honourable person.
I deserve to be honoured and valued.
It is OK for me to receive.
I respect myself.
I AM deserving of ALL good.
And so it is. And so it shall be.
I love you , and beyond ego, I love myself. I am very lovable and I am a worthwhile person :) SMILE

Good wishes to the world

Why oh why do challenges feel so difficult? I suppose that is why they are called challenges.
I am facing a challenge at the moment of being angry at not being heard. I know that that signifies that on some level that that means that i am not listening as i know, metaphysically speaking, the outer world is a reflection of the inner. (that is a lot of 'that's ' in that sentence)
What does it all mean? Who is not listening?
Am I not listening to myself? Am I too analytical? Probably. I am talking to myself now. Or typing to myself even!
Maybe it is a way of getting myself to hear. To hear myself i mean.
What do i want to say?
Well If i were to stand outside myself and give myself a good talking to, I would say.........

Forgive yourself
Forgive everyone else
Don't be hard on yourself.
You are a good person.
Ok you have weaknesses and flaws, who doesnt. But focus on the good stuff, but also be honest with yourself.

Ok I will be honest.... (wow this is tough)
Your leg hurts, you are tired, you have been pushing yourself lately, you need to eat at the right times and get more sleep. You need to exercise more, be more productive.
Sort through that corner of the room where the clutter is accumulating. Plan your day more. Be more structured. Go out in nature more. Schedule more meditaion time. Claim time for yourself.
Rest more so you have more energy. Focus more on what you love and what you want to do with your life. Make more things happen for yourself.Look after yourself. Learn to be more loving towards yourself. Ok lecture over enough said.

Ok, so now I will look at the things that are going well in my life, the positive stuff....
I am going to apply for the eurovision with both Cyprus and England!!!!!
I am running two successful groups on the law of attraction.
Today I gave a singing lesson. Today I also gave some spiritual healing to my friend.
Thats 2 people's livs i have touched today in a positive and constructive way. That i see as something to be grateful for. For the opprtunity to be of service in someones development and self healing. What a wonderful thing. I am thankful for that.
It was a very profound experience giving healing today. I felt Angels working with me, even before i started giving the healing. It was very beautiful. I had quite a profound psychic experience where i felt very in-tune and was shown visions of what caused a dis-ease that had been healed. And also i was guided in my vision of what needed healing.
I hope i am explaining this clearly. I know it could or may sound odd to some , but it was very real to me.
I just read this to my boyfriend. He said who are you writing it to.I am writing my blog I said
I noticed that i could see his Aura as i was saying that.
I am going to bed now.
Need to sleep.
Thank you blog for being there.
I needed to tell you this stuff. Thank you for being there whoever is reading this.
I reach out through time and space to say.
I wish you love.
Goodnight :)

Certificate In Personal Coaching Received

Today I received the certificate in personal coaching for attending the training with the Life Coaching Academy. I am very pleased to say.
What was amazing is that when i walked in to the first days training in the morning there was the song 'there must be angel playing with my heart' sung by Annie Lennox coming out of the speakers.
Then I thought to myself
''OK I am in the right place''- ''At the right time''
This evening an old student came to see me.That used to come to me for vocal coaching when i lived in Wimbledon. I had not seen him in about a year as he had moved up North.
It was good to see him :)
he is thinking of moving back here.
All in divine time.
I received a message from a friend in Australia asking if i had ''done anything'' i.e. sent him distance healing energy , as he felt better. -I did.- I told him that all that i had done was send him love.

Today is a wonderful day

Today is a wonderful day. I comlpeted my first day of two days training as a life coach with the Life Coaching Academy.I learned so much and added to my skills as a success coach.
I'm very grateful for the opportunity. I then went home to a wonderful dinner and wine with my partner and a friend.
I am very fortunate.

Today I allow success to manifest into my life

Today i allow success to manifest into my life.
I am achieving ever greater levels of success as a singer/songwriter, spiritual life coach and a holistic vocal coach.
I choose to speak in positive, loving terms about myself and allow myself to attract only that which is for my highest good. Last night i received a call from a friend who swears she never called me. The phone dialled me by itself. She told me how in a few hours she was going to see 'Gary Quinn' Life coach to the stars in Richmond who was over from the USA and would I like to come. Needless to say , i said yes.
A few years ago i was in a co-dependant relationship. I am a gay man but at the time I had not come out (even to myself) and was living with a woman for nearly 14 years. I was desperately unhappy and I was an addict. Sex, drugs, food, compulsive behaviours.Although there was always a deep spiritual side to me which felt completely out of alignment with my compulsive, addictive and unconsciously self destructive behaviours. I was in constant deep emotional turmoil , full of guilt and shame and i hated myself. In fact i wanted to be dead. Anything not to feel this empty pain and utter despair. This day i was contemplating suicide but was even too scared to do that. I was miserable to say the least. I was in a charity shop one day and a book flew off the shelf at me .It practically hit me on the head. It was called 'May the Angels be with you' by Gary Quinn. Amazingly this was my first proper introduction to the power of the angels.
Since that day, i went out and studied everything i could about angels. I went through so much Counselling,Support Groups, Healing, Spiritual and Psychic Healing.Always the right thing teacher, book, film, article or whatever i needed for my own development and healing would appear at the right time.After a year of what i can only describe as hell.During this year. I supported myself with the teachings of Louise Hay both recorded and in book form.The Angels and Louise Work on the power of positive thinking and affirming, actually saved my life. I now after living in a dark, damp depressing conditions through perseverance and divine grace and guidance turned my life around. After the break up of my co-dependant relationship with a woman and finally coming out as gay to my family, I was able to embrace my shadow and see how it had taught me huge lessons in learning to love myself and always live in the truth, no matter how ugly or how painful when you live in alignment with who you are, miracles happen.
They really do. Even today, i can look back, now drug free for over two years. I have a wonderful partner with a man I truly love and truly loves me. Of course challenges arise but that is what helps us grow. I can now bless every situation and tormentor with love and truly see them as my teacher in learning how to love more. I now run groups and coach people in healing their lives and achieving their dreams. Even last night. The fact that I got a call from my friend going to see Gary Quinn and she swears she didn't phone me, to me is another example of proof that the Angels are operating in my life, not only in my life but in all of our lives. As we open our minds and direct and focus our energy on the angels, they come into our energy field, it is really that simple. Ask and you shall receive. I want anyone to know who is reading this that whatever challenge you are facing in your life, no matter how impossible or difficult , in time you will be able to look back and see why it happened and how it was there to help you, disguised as a tragedy but actually a lesson in love. I love you.
By the way
I later met Gary Quinn before last night, he signed my book.And I told him my story and thanked him.

Please feel free to email me. Alexis at totalvocalsuccess@live.co.uk if you want information on one to one coaching or group work.

Thursday 30th October's child has far to go

I was born on a thursday, they say thursday's child has far to go, hopefully that means I will go far :)
Last night's group was wonderful, there were many insights and breakthroughs. It was week 14.
I am so grateful that i co - lead this group and that my mother and grandmother come to this group. 3 Generations. I am breaking the cycle and helping in all of our developments in positive thinking. I grew up in a very judgemental critical family that was very competitive, condemning and to be frank not very supportive, dysfunctional yes, I know i am not alone there. Yet I know that they were all doing the best with the knowledge and awareness that they had available to them, if they knew better, they would do better and they certainly did not know how to love themselves, so they were not able to teach this. Love is what makes stable secure people.
I am learning how and teaching people how to learn to love themselves, which makes me very grateful for the opportunity. We performed affirmation baths which are positive statements spoken by 4 people at the same time while one person remains seated receiving these affirmations. There were also various examples on the law of attraction, being in the now and how we all create our own reality with our thinking feeling patterns.

I am a conscious co- creator with spirit

Today Wednesday the 29th October 2008 is the first day of the rest of my life, I shall remain mindful to be conscious of the foods that i eat, the words that i think and speak, the energy that i am giving out.
I shall endeavour to be more loving to myself and to others. I am very blessed in many ways and full of gratitude. I live with my wonderful partner in a beautiful home, we share similar interests and write songs together and have live performances of our music. I run groups on the law of attraction , and teach the philosophy of Louise Hay and other spiritual teachers.
Tonight I am co- running my group from home, Metaphysics, Angels & The Law of Attraction.
The intention behind the group is to have highly successful educational and fun groups, workshops and retreats that assist in the development of consciousness and fulfilling our highest potential through utilising the law of attraction. The group is in it's 14th week and on the 11th November I start a new central london group from Neal's Yard, Covent Garden.
I personally have some intentions.
I intend to reach my ideal body weight .
I intend to prosper and achieve worldwide success as a singer, songwriter and touring performer.
I intend to co-host a highly successful trans-continental metaphysical television show
I intend to attract all the assistance i need in realising my intentions in the most harmonious ways.
I intend to write books on the subjects close to my heart. So now i will turn these intentions into affirmations

I am now achieving my natural body weight easily and effortlessly.
I am now in the process of becoming a worldwide successful singer, songwriter, performer and talk show host AND i now magnetically and naturally attract all the assistance that i need in realising my intentions in the most harmonious ways.
I am in the process of writing my first two books.


I release all that no longer serves my spiritual growth and development and I now allow myself to move beyond any limited patterns of thinking.
I release all criticism, fear and judgement, I love and approve of myself knowing that I am safe and all is well .
Everything i need comes to me easily and effortlessly and appears to me even before i need it.I am abundant and i now choose to live abundantly and talk in ways that attract more abundance and prosperity into my life and into the lives of others.Knowing that i prosper wherever i turn.

And so it is and so shall it be. I love you.