Humbled by Love , Into thinking big & living small

Yes to realise ones greatness and be unlimited and to recognise the perfection of being as a child of God, The Universe and creation , but simultaneously realising the humility required to be close to the divine.Is an awe inspiring thought. Beyond the ego and into the realms of the spirit.
I am in love with love and i am humbled in the knowledge that i am a speck of dust living on the back of the glorious and divine being, our mother earth.I am so grateful, today i give thanks for the rain, for my friends, for truth, for music, for the love i have in my life, for my parents and grandparents. For the ability to sing and share, for my computer, for words and for my home, for my bed,for the ability to feel and laugh and cry.for what money i have in my life. I give thanks to God and to the angels for all the glory and my heart sings.
also realising my human limitations and shortcomings.
But to focus on the unlimited potential. The divine paradox
Where is my attention. I shall fix it on the greatness and the beauty rather than the ugliness and cruelty and the horrors that can be so apparent in this waking dream and most probable illusion called life. Knowing that what we focus on expands.
Therefore i choose love, greatness , beauty and perfection.And also to be here now, in this moment, but to reflect , momentarily:-
My friend said today i was too heavy and i needed to lighten up and that i was far too serious , that i was projecting my need for perfection and the lack of it, onto her. I wonder whether that was her projection , using me as a mirror for her own negativity and self judgement. She said that whenever she left me, she felt drained of energy and that around her other friends she was proclaimed as a breath of fresh air. Shall I choose to be hurt by this? Is this something i need to forgive? Do i give it attention here by speaking about it? Yes but as a release of energy rather than something i wish to hold on to. I know upon reading this back that we can only perceive and attract something in our life because we are that energetic vibration.
I wonder what it was all about. I certainly accept my need to grow, adapt and change and be positive, she implied that i was judgemental in thinking that she was not happy, i smiled and said i did not wish to change her, i accepted her unconditionally but i did say that when i left her i often felt drained and i retaliated in the truth of saying that i felt she was often a negative person and she complained a lot. She agreed and i also acknowledged that i complained alot too. We both agreed that we enjoyed complaining, perhaps it was the pursuit of perfection.
I remain somewhat perplexed by the whole exchange. But what i definitely agree with is that perhaps at times i can be too serious and that i needed to lighten up more(now there was a contradiction) how very geminian of me- what i definitely agree with is -'perhaps'.Does that make any sense?
What complex beings we can be
And yet oh so very stupid and simple.
I have a sneaky suspicion i may be beating myself up here. I shall stop , withdraw and retreat , immediately.
Love, Love Love
& Laughter.
Oh what a paradox, what a comedy, who am i speaking with anyway, Now Piss off
I love You :)