Thoth on the wall

I know my blog is getting weirder.
a few weeks ago i was in the foyer of the college of Psychic studies , i met a woman in her 80's who said that she knew we were there to meet each other although turns out we had never met each other before, at least in this life, i kept getting the image of a white rose, she later tells me she belongs to a mystical order called the order of the white rose which is based in egypt, this woman that can barely walk, channels Angels and Archangels and also channels the egyptian god Thoth. A week later I arranged to give her a healing session at her house. It was incredible there was a face that had manifested on the wall. It was very 3 dimensional, she said it was the face of Thoth her guide.
I photographed that. No one else has.
She showed me 2 books she has channeled which are incredible, she told me that she cannot leave the planet until this work is published. I am working on getting her and me an interview with a famous publisher. I since had a vision where an Angel and several spirit beings appeared to me and imparted psychic information to me. I know this all sounds incredible. I am in awe myself. I later realised that one of the spirit enteties that appeared to me was Thoth.
I was deeply moved by this experience.
It is difficult to put into words. But I will write more about it as time goes on. Something incredible is happening in my life. I know that i am deeply blessed.
I am very grateful.
Love to all
Namaste

Meeting Merlin

So today I met and had lunch with a friend. A man who declared to me that he channels Jeshua who is also Jesus. We met at a networking evening recently. He told me today how he is also the being Merlin.
At least a part of his consciousness is the energy that was also the magical being and wizard Merlin. I am no stranger to this type of phenomena, after all i was a member of the Aetherius Society for many years where the founder believed he was a cosmic avatar and master of the Aquarian age who was a martian being who channeled the energy that was Jesus. I believed him. so what is to stop me believing in this man as speaking the truth?
I have friends who i believe are mermaids incarnated in physical bodies, some which are fairies some are angels. Although i know some believe we all have a different star seed origin and although some people are human they are also Alien in origin or at least hybrid.
I have friends from the Plaides system , another from Cirrus, I know a unicorn who is incarnated as human. Some would have me committed i know. Sheer fantasy? That too must be considered as a reality. Yet also what is written here must also be considered as a reality. We must not close our minds to possibilities. There are things we do not know and things we do not understand. Is this the babbling of a poor deluded soul or is the writings of a wise and enlightened being. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and truth just is. Although it can also be affected by the perceiver therefore truth has different dimensions depending upon perception. Is 1 really 1 or is one really many appearing as 1 . Is 2 really 2 or is 2 1 appearing as 1. If 2 is 1 disguised as 2 . Then what of 1's energetic and ethereal body, aura, soul and psychic centres. Is this philosophy or is questioning reality and perception the inspired divine?
All things are possible in all permutations if we can be unlimited in our thinking.
Yet as mortals we are limited.
Who is to say that we are not multi dimensional beings and that there are aspects to our beings that are non physical. For me, i believe this statement as truth, therefore i experience this as my truth. Yet my truth may be different from your truth because you believe it to be so.
My Merlin friend also admitted to me that he was part reptillian. I was sensing this long before he said it to me.
So what is the truth.
You dear reader must decide.
But keep an open mind and consider all possibities for this universe is far greater than either you or i and our limited minds can comprehend.
Yet all truth is. And possibily is not. Where there is yin there is yang. Where there is Yang there is yin. Are you following or have i lost you.
All is One.
Or is it 2? Some affirmations:
I AM strong, centred and decisive
I AM divinely guided into sure decisions.
''I AM SAFE AND SECURE AND ATTRACT ONLY POSITIVE HELPFUL PEOPLE INTO MY LIFE''
I release all that no longer serves me
I am loved and lovable
and all is well
I forgive and i am free.
I transfer my pain into soul lessons and understanding.
everyone including me is doing the best that they can with the knowledge and awareness that they have.
this moment is perfect and exactly as it needs to be therefore i accept and flow with life.
I am safe
and i express ther grateness of who i am
I am a beloved child of the universe.
And so it is

I love you xxx

So what do I want?

So what do i want?
If money was no no object.
Well i with my partner would have houses in Cyprus, Los Angeles, Norway and London.
I would spend time with animals, particularly cats and dogs which i love.
I with my partner would perform , write , record and tour the world.
I would teach and hold retreats, seminars and workshops all over the world.
I would have a spiritual centre for self development and healing.
I would have abundance and healing programs that would teach people how to live the life they want to live, i would write books, songs and paint and work with colour light and sound.
I would have cars too and design a range of clothing with crystals in them.
i would learn several different new healing modalities and expand my knowledge and study.
I would develop my own fragrances.
I would play my part in contributing to the world.
I would have my own cook to cook auervedic and other vegetarian and vegan cuisine.
I would work also on achieving and maintaining my perfect weight and being as healthy and well balanced an individual as i could be . And I would be as joyful as i could be all the time.
So what is stopping me?
Absolutely nothing :)

Today- I release all i no longer need - With Love

This is my space to be honest so i will, and I am grateful for the opportunity and release.I was so moved today, firstly by the fact that we finished writing our entry for eurovision, after 9 days or so of working on it. We recorded it too. We also wrote a second song that was originally started a year or so ago, then shelved till today, and they are truly beautiful songs.The second one more so as the eurovision entry is more pop/dance whereas the other is more heartfelt and a ballad, but both are like beloved children. Really rich, The ballad called 'Today' and its full of meaning and depth and substance. so it was a really creative and love filled day.Ok here's my challenge, I really want to be slimmer because i know my weight is affecting my confidence as a performer, We gave a very good performance to a full house last night and we got a lot of positive genuine feedback but when i was on stage, yet again i felt very encumbered by my weight and self conscious. I know it probably didn't show but i just know within myself that i would feel a million times more confident if i was slimmer.

I do feel positive about many things in my life but for me, my weight is the biggest challenge in my life. It used to be my sexuality. But I got over that one, i embraced it. I have to some degree embraced my weight but to me it's like my final frontier. I could write a lot about it but i will write in affirmations and be in- keeping with positive ethos.
I embrace all my self completely and i choose to view myself with love.
I am willing to change
I am willing to release everything i no longer need, including my excess weight.
I go beyond any limitations in my thinking and in my energy and i release all criticism.
I am doing the best that i can with the knowledge and awareness that i have.
I lovingly release all i no longer need easily and effortlessly.
I give up any inner struggles and let go of the need to control.
I am in the flow.
I accept my faults knowing that i am perfect in divine sight beyond ego, as i am a beloved child of the universe.
This moment is exactly as it meant to be.
All is well.
I go with the flow.
I send love to my fears and then release them.
I release all that no longer serves me.
I am willing to change, I AM willing to change.
I am divinely guided.
With the help of God and the Angels , I Can accomplish anything i set my mind to.
I am a master manifestor.
And so it is.
Shanti Shanti Shanti

Humbled by Love , Into thinking big & living small

Yes to realise ones greatness and be unlimited and to recognise the perfection of being as a child of God, The Universe and creation , but simultaneously realising the humility required to be close to the divine.Is an awe inspiring thought. Beyond the ego and into the realms of the spirit.
I am in love with love and i am humbled in the knowledge that i am a speck of dust living on the back of the glorious and divine being, our mother earth.I am so grateful, today i give thanks for the rain, for my friends, for truth, for music, for the love i have in my life, for my parents and grandparents. For the ability to sing and share, for my computer, for words and for my home, for my bed,for the ability to feel and laugh and cry.for what money i have in my life. I give thanks to God and to the angels for all the glory and my heart sings.
also realising my human limitations and shortcomings.
But to focus on the unlimited potential. The divine paradox
Where is my attention. I shall fix it on the greatness and the beauty rather than the ugliness and cruelty and the horrors that can be so apparent in this waking dream and most probable illusion called life. Knowing that what we focus on expands.
Therefore i choose love, greatness , beauty and perfection.And also to be here now, in this moment, but to reflect , momentarily:-
My friend said today i was too heavy and i needed to lighten up and that i was far too serious , that i was projecting my need for perfection and the lack of it, onto her. I wonder whether that was her projection , using me as a mirror for her own negativity and self judgement. She said that whenever she left me, she felt drained of energy and that around her other friends she was proclaimed as a breath of fresh air. Shall I choose to be hurt by this? Is this something i need to forgive? Do i give it attention here by speaking about it? Yes but as a release of energy rather than something i wish to hold on to. I know upon reading this back that we can only perceive and attract something in our life because we are that energetic vibration.
I wonder what it was all about. I certainly accept my need to grow, adapt and change and be positive, she implied that i was judgemental in thinking that she was not happy, i smiled and said i did not wish to change her, i accepted her unconditionally but i did say that when i left her i often felt drained and i retaliated in the truth of saying that i felt she was often a negative person and she complained a lot. She agreed and i also acknowledged that i complained alot too. We both agreed that we enjoyed complaining, perhaps it was the pursuit of perfection.
I remain somewhat perplexed by the whole exchange. But what i definitely agree with is that perhaps at times i can be too serious and that i needed to lighten up more(now there was a contradiction) how very geminian of me- what i definitely agree with is -'perhaps'.Does that make any sense?
What complex beings we can be
And yet oh so very stupid and simple.
I have a sneaky suspicion i may be beating myself up here. I shall stop , withdraw and retreat , immediately.
Love, Love Love
& Laughter.
Oh what a paradox, what a comedy, who am i speaking with anyway, Now Piss off
I love You :)

The More Money I spend - The More Money I receive

At the moment i am listening to 'The Missing Secret' by Joe Vitale
It sounds a little like a big advert. I can currently smell the pink freesias i got for £1 - Bargain
They smell beautiful. My favourite flower. As well as Roses.
Freesias represent purity.
This week has been really busy. Which is why i have not been blogging every day.
Sunday I went to Family Constellations therapy with my mother. This is amazing work developed by missionary Bert Hellinger who worked closely with a Zulu tribe. The work was profound, and i felt as if it really benefited both my mother and myself and also our relationship.
Monday I was performing at The Pigalle In Piccadilly (Beyonce's sister was performing after us)
Tuesday I started my new group on the 'Law Of Attraction' in Covent Garden
Wednesday I went to a brilliant Networking evening in covent garden meeting lots of interesting people that are traders in Covent garden .I went with the award winning designer Gavin Pierre Medford i am working with.
Thursday I gave a free talk at Waterstones in putney on the law of attraction. It went very well.
Thursday night and Friday morning i was teaching singing
Friday afternoon I was free and Saturday morning i met for coffee with my friend who is a yoga teacher and Druid High Priestess. Then I had to deal with a problem that arised from one of my granddad's 30 tenants . Their electricity failed so i had to go and see if i could source the problems origin.
I could not, so i called the electrician. He will be coming out tomorrow morning. So i helped with achieving a positive outcome for them.
Tomorrow morning my partner are going with some good friends to a forest outside London, it will be beautiful to spend some time in nature.We have been working on a song we are going to enter for Eurovision for both Cyprus and England. We will do some more work on it today. On Monday evening we are performing at The Famous Half Moon - Music Pub in Putney.
SOME AFFIRMATIONS:
I am grateful.
I project love before me, so that everywhere i go, i am met by own love.
I am a winner
I am successful. I move into ever greater circles of success.
I am a master manifestor.
I move beyond ego into divine and inspired guidance.
I am healthy
I am loved.
I now manifest perfection throughout every area of my life.
I accept this moment as perfect.
And so it is.
I love you.

My time is precious

Well today I had an appointment scheduled to give a singing lesson at 8pm. It is now 8.18
He didn't show, it has affirmed for me that my time is precious and that i need to put a system in place where students pay in advance and if there is a no-show or a cancellation then a fee is payed.
I saw my lovely friend from Devon today. She moved there quite recently.A very spiritual lady. She re -affirmed for me how important it is to be psychically protected when working with energy. I will use greater psychic protection as of now i have decided. I will be more aware.
I purchased some psychic protection resources that i used to own but foolishly gave them to a friend some years ago who recently came back into my orbit and i asked if i could have them back, they had been lost. One of the conditions of the purchase of the psychic protection material was that the information was confidential to the purchaser. I feel i have learned another valuable lesson there, that not only my time but my resources are valuable and that i need to be mindful about giving things away. I love to give but in the past have found it difficult to receive.
Perhaps my affirmations to myself today will be:
My time and resources are valuable.
I am a valuable person.
I am worthwhile and deserving of respect.
I honour myself.
I am an honourable person.
I deserve to be honoured and valued.
It is OK for me to receive.
I respect myself.
I AM deserving of ALL good.
And so it is. And so it shall be.
I love you , and beyond ego, I love myself. I am very lovable and I am a worthwhile person :) SMILE

Good wishes to the world

Why oh why do challenges feel so difficult? I suppose that is why they are called challenges.
I am facing a challenge at the moment of being angry at not being heard. I know that that signifies that on some level that that means that i am not listening as i know, metaphysically speaking, the outer world is a reflection of the inner. (that is a lot of 'that's ' in that sentence)
What does it all mean? Who is not listening?
Am I not listening to myself? Am I too analytical? Probably. I am talking to myself now. Or typing to myself even!
Maybe it is a way of getting myself to hear. To hear myself i mean.
What do i want to say?
Well If i were to stand outside myself and give myself a good talking to, I would say.........

Forgive yourself
Forgive everyone else
Don't be hard on yourself.
You are a good person.
Ok you have weaknesses and flaws, who doesnt. But focus on the good stuff, but also be honest with yourself.

Ok I will be honest.... (wow this is tough)
Your leg hurts, you are tired, you have been pushing yourself lately, you need to eat at the right times and get more sleep. You need to exercise more, be more productive.
Sort through that corner of the room where the clutter is accumulating. Plan your day more. Be more structured. Go out in nature more. Schedule more meditaion time. Claim time for yourself.
Rest more so you have more energy. Focus more on what you love and what you want to do with your life. Make more things happen for yourself.Look after yourself. Learn to be more loving towards yourself. Ok lecture over enough said.

Ok, so now I will look at the things that are going well in my life, the positive stuff....
I am going to apply for the eurovision with both Cyprus and England!!!!!
I am running two successful groups on the law of attraction.
Today I gave a singing lesson. Today I also gave some spiritual healing to my friend.
Thats 2 people's livs i have touched today in a positive and constructive way. That i see as something to be grateful for. For the opprtunity to be of service in someones development and self healing. What a wonderful thing. I am thankful for that.
It was a very profound experience giving healing today. I felt Angels working with me, even before i started giving the healing. It was very beautiful. I had quite a profound psychic experience where i felt very in-tune and was shown visions of what caused a dis-ease that had been healed. And also i was guided in my vision of what needed healing.
I hope i am explaining this clearly. I know it could or may sound odd to some , but it was very real to me.
I just read this to my boyfriend. He said who are you writing it to.I am writing my blog I said
I noticed that i could see his Aura as i was saying that.
I am going to bed now.
Need to sleep.
Thank you blog for being there.
I needed to tell you this stuff. Thank you for being there whoever is reading this.
I reach out through time and space to say.
I wish you love.
Goodnight :)

Certificate In Personal Coaching Received

Today I received the certificate in personal coaching for attending the training with the Life Coaching Academy. I am very pleased to say.
What was amazing is that when i walked in to the first days training in the morning there was the song 'there must be angel playing with my heart' sung by Annie Lennox coming out of the speakers.
Then I thought to myself
''OK I am in the right place''- ''At the right time''
This evening an old student came to see me.That used to come to me for vocal coaching when i lived in Wimbledon. I had not seen him in about a year as he had moved up North.
It was good to see him :)
he is thinking of moving back here.
All in divine time.
I received a message from a friend in Australia asking if i had ''done anything'' i.e. sent him distance healing energy , as he felt better. -I did.- I told him that all that i had done was send him love.

Today is a wonderful day

Today is a wonderful day. I comlpeted my first day of two days training as a life coach with the Life Coaching Academy.I learned so much and added to my skills as a success coach.
I'm very grateful for the opportunity. I then went home to a wonderful dinner and wine with my partner and a friend.
I am very fortunate.