Hello from South Africa

Did you know then when you pray for something bad to happen to someone it's black magic?

I am mentioning this because i overheard someone talking about doing this about people he resented. I wonder if he is aware of the karmic consequences.

Anyway, here I am in South Africa. My shoulder blades and neck are tense and hurting. I think it's from watching Desperate Housewives lying on my belly with pillows under my head.

serves me right then i suppose! It could also be from exercising which I have not done in 2 days

I was supposed to start daily but circumstances didn't allow.

I WILL go tomorrow.

My relationship with my beautiful partner Joseph is going well. Of course there are moments when it feels like things need work and of course they do, but is there a relationship out there that does not need work? The bottom line is - love - respect - honesty and trust.

Those are the qualities i think you need and we are certainly working on all those things and they are there as much as possible. I have come to the deep understanding that relationship is a mirror. The challenges you face in a relationship are a part of yourself and a part of your parents dynamic repeating , so you can look at them . You may want to heal things in your relationship but the only true healing comes when you work on yourself because your relationship is mirroring something within you. So is your relationship with life. Its just a macrocosm of whats happening in your microcosm. But we forget, it seems. So we need reminding.

I seem to be in a constant battle with myself and questioning whether i over - intellectualize

and over analyse rather than just be - I have this 'fear' that if I don't understand then I will miss something and something could go wrong. Then I ask myself 'what is the harm in understanding something'?

I suppose nothing but there is a danger in over thinking things and missing life while you are thinking about it.

I wonder if anyone has life truly figured out? Yoga Masters? They are still human though right?

So I stopped drinking in January. Its now mid July

My aim is to also not have sugar, wheat and ideally dairy but I love cheese .

Oh my God a life without cheese? I will be like monk or a nun with no scooter!!!!

Angels in the background

So Doreen Virtue's angel meditation is playing in the background.

I feel empty. Devoid of love.

I am engaged to a man I dearly love. So why do I feel this way?

Well...

Fear?

Yes

Fear of What? I ask myself

Fear of losing him and him acting on his addictions.

You know what Florence would say, I hear myself think .... I hear the words TRUST on the recorded material in the background. A synchronous reminder from the universe. So Florence Scovel Shinn in her book the game of life and how to play it and her other books 'Your Word Is your wand' talks about how you attract what you fear. I have seen examples of this fact in my own life several times. So how then do I , knowing this. Let go of my fear? 'The Angels' I hear myself think. Ok then angels, please take away from me my fear.

I need your help now. 'We now call upon the romance angels' the recording says.

Romance begins with you, Doreen Virtue is saying on the recording.

Ok then , I think - I am willing to learn to begin loving myself more.

Even though i catch myself in the mirror looking in horror, I am willing to learn to love myself a little more each day. I am safe. I am safe. It is safe for me to love and to be loved.

Ok i am working on it...................

The lost angel

The truth. Is it always the best policy? Yes is my answer. I can't live with lies and deceit.
So I spent the last month developing a deepening friendship with someone I have never met except through cyberspace on facebook. Part angel part nephilim an ancient race mentioned in the bible.
OK maybe i may have one or two facts in my information wrong or somehow distorted perhaps, i was not sure??? Wrong because when i was talking to him, getting information was like removing teeth, slow and painful. The fact is I love my partner, yet a deepening relationship was forming with Raffaele that was reaching fever pitch in the emotional department. Something beyond physical, after all we had never met. Yet there was an intense love between us. Perhaps the ancient Egyptian connection from another life.
He fearlessly told me of how he worked for a being of karma, how he was a demon in another life, a vampire even, was i or he being tricked by the ego by creating fanciful stories? Doubtful.
The truth is always stranger than fiction. He promoted dark angels on his facebook profile yet claimed to be of the light . I believed him. It reached the point where i had to tell my beloved partner the truth that i had developed feelings for this man. So I did, therefore i faced losing him.
It felt like a cactus in my stomach . A big one. Losing Raffaele felt like my heart had been torn out , yet to lose Svein would mean my whole world would fall apart. One was a relationship in cyberspace , also etheric , spiritual, romantic full of danger mystery and seduction . The other was more than 3 years of intense real physical relationship that had become despondent and badly needed some emergency repair. Mouth to mouth, heart to heart, D.I.Y. T.L.C. honesty , alignment and downright attention. Honesty is just so damned uncomfortable. I would rather hide under a rock than face this but I don't like insects , and i know they live there.
So I cut off the connections to Raffaele and I'm feeling the loss. If I had lost Svein I would have been an empty shell regardless of the love from this angel.
My solace was that he had hundreds of facebook friends and could easily divert his his attention to them and perhaps with time, the pain would fade.And I cling to the possibility that had we met the magic would soon have faded. There were signs on both side that were calling our names. The signs and sychronicities were numerous, but energy flows where attention goes. Every song had a meaning , even today after reading an article on the law of attraction channeled by Esther Hicks, where was the channeled article I read channelled?
San Raffaele of course.
GOD PLEASE GIVE ME STRENGTH.
Thankfully I have a bottle of Bach Rescue Remedy to hand.Knowing that the universe provides.
Thank you.
Staying in the light and following the music
Alexis.

Purple Robes

Purple Robes
In my mind he wore a purple robe, I could see it , it was velvet, majestic and regal exactly as the monarch would wear.We spoke of other dimensions, Aliens and the Greek dynasties of old like it was yesterday.It was strange yet totally still and real .I am referring to my meeting with the master of voice Stewart Pearce. We had tea, the most beautiful peach (i think it was, sencha tea) sencha for sens u al.He told me how his spirit guide was Saint Germain and that the angels had given him 'The Alchemy of voice ' and how was doing an Atlantean retreat, and how his father worked for the royal family who he spent time with growing up. He later became Master of Voice at the Globe Theatre and he spoke of how the Mother Mary was still alive in the Oratory and that Jesus was with us in the architecture of the Victoria and Albert Museum. And the geomancy and symmetry and flow of the energy and whoever designed the place was definitely 'In the know'He pointed out the energetic differences as we walked further into the building, surrounded by stunning architectural beauty and beauty in so many other forms that I cannot count.He was a strange mix of vulnerability and authority and absolutely beautiful and i told him so.Ever humble and without any ego he gracefully told me it was what was coming through him that was so magnetic . But it was also him.I could have spent days in his company, easily, here was a man i have admired and looked up to for years. For his work and for his magnetism and just his sheer spellbinding beauty. I recalled that when i had first met him some years before , attending a lecture at the inner potential centre in Fulham , after the talk , i wanted to follow him out of the building all the way home just to breathe in the energy coming from the man. I know it sounds like a crazy besotted stalker and in that moment in time that is exactly what I felt like. I went home all those years ago and he had left an imprint. And I had bought the book alchemy of voice. And here i was meeting him having tea to discuss interviewing him for the TV show Pilot I and my American friend and co-host Veronica were to film in the coming months. It was obvious and it was voiced that the angels had orchestrated (or 'Stage Managed' as he put it) - our meeting. He wore a violet shirt, incredibly and pristinely cut what looked like black bell bottoms- that I only noticed as we said goodbye -and a beautiful Amethyst square ring on one hand an A-U-M ring made out of diamonds on the other that his Indian Master had given to him he told me. I had a total respect for his knowledge, and he smelled like a million dollars, I asked and it was 'Hermes' he said.It had to be Greek sounding. I intimated towards the end of our meeting that he was Greek. And he told me quite matter of fact and knowingly that we had met in an Orpheus school in another life. It seemed entirely logical and true. I told him that he was like a drink in a dessert. And he was. He then asked me if I had been to the desert and then proceeded to tell me he had lived with the Bedouin for some weeks and how they 'read' the sands and listened to the wind. After being questioned on why, I felt as if he totally understood why I with Veronica, was doing this project and that he would support it wholeheartedly. I was truly honoured. I found out that day that he had been voice- coach to the late- Diana, Princess of Wales also Anita Roddick of the body Shop fame as well as Margaret Thatcher of all people. He was commanding yet insecure in the sweetest of ways. I felt as if I had made a friend. At leat I hoped so. A very special person indeed.I had such a busy day. In the morning , it was duties for my grandfather, which always drained me, and it was intense , constant and demanding, Dealing with tenants and a constant stream of telephone calls. Then a meeting with Kirk at the Half Moon to start A music Network for Putney which I have titled - Powerlight Putney Music And Arts Platform in connection with Angelsoundstudio and Songseed - Monthly networking at Sally's Cafe at St.Mary's Church - Putney Bridge and performance opportunities at the Half Moon Pub and Music Venue. (A really long but descriptive name) I secured 3 dates for August , September And October to get the project off the ground, as well as later teaching singing and then rushing back for a meeting at the library about applying for an arts grant for the music networking project. Where my beloved was waiting for me. Followed by coffee and some great forward planning that seems to solidify our future in music .So much going on. Lorna said this morning , quite strangely, by text- out of the blue- from no-where- that it was to be a momentous day. And It was.Last night I had 2 and a half hours sleep and now again it's approaching 3.20 amExhausted but extremely thankful and somewhat Joyous.I bid you goodnight. And good day from a jubilant Alexis.Every day we are indeed - made new.
I love you. x

Why was it bothering me still and now

It happened so long ago, the memory re-surfaced from no-where, i was a little boy maybe a teenager , living in Cyprus and i can see the meal my mother made for me, microwaved jacket potato - it was not a large amount , it looked dry and unappealing- there was something with it - maybe Greek yoghurt or something- and I'm feeling really angry and hungry and thinking this is not enough, it is not going to fill me up- i want some real food some proper food.Although i ate it gratefull for the food. I wouldn't dare tell her that i wanted more - she would be furious, I had a nervous cough which drove her crazy, it was because i was so fearfull of her energy which seemed so powerful and overbearing full of anxt . I remember coming home from school during those teenage years in Cyprus and opening our fridge and seeing an old piece of Greek cheese (anari- it was called) wrapped in silver foil , in the door of the fridge- and a row of perfumes. L'air De Temps or something by Nina Ricci brought back from one of my dad's trips abroad. Kept in the fridge to not go off in the hot Cyprus weather- nothing else, no food.
I remember buying as many chocolates as i could and hiding them under my bed in my room and stuffing my face as quickly as i could before i got found out- we were not allowed chocolate unless my mother was having her period and was craving sugar, then we could have some, maybe even two. My mother was always obsessed with food and calories , it seemed i knew everything about how many calories were in things- I remember fit for life by Harvey and Marilyn diamond being a big thing- my mum had the video, and i remember Jane Fonda's video workout which my mum would do, and the plastic surgery. I remember seeing the bruising , it was horrific, my mother who i loved putting herself through torture and stupid men cutting her up so and bruising her arse so she could feel better about herself. So she could approve of herself and find approval from other people. OK so we did have food sometimes, of course we did. But this is the stuff that i really remember, the bruising , the anger and hurt i felt and how i had this terrible fear that has stayed with me even till today there there would not be enough food and that i would be hungry and that i had to gorge myself on chocolate and crisps and really quickly in case i got found out . I remember years later always standing in the corner with my face towards the wall and NEVER letting anyone see me eat in public otherwise they would see i was a greedy fat pig and how DARE a fat person eat . They should not eat till they were slim. This all sounds ridiculous I know. I am now 37 and these memories have just come up again. They replay in my head sometimes and have done for years- the same scenes over and over again- i remember all the Diet cokes - full of toxic Aspartame (i know now) that was my mothers and my aunts staple feel good drink. I have done so much work on myself knowing that my mother has done her best with the knowledge and awareness that she has , But the truth is i am really f...ing angry about being denied food as a child , and the child within me is crying out saying- you didn't notice me, you didn't hear me , you didn't acknowledge how much it hurt watching you bruised black and blue as you undid the bandages from your liposuction to reduce the size of your arse. I am really angry and upset that you did not love yourself enough and that nobody told you how to love yourself and that you could not teach me to love myself because you did not know how to love yourself.
I AM REALLY ANGRY WITH YOU THAT WERE YOU SO DUMB AND STUPID AND I AM HURTING BECAUSE YOU CAN'T SEE OR HEAR THIS- I WANT TO READ THIS TO YOU SO YOU CAN FEEL IT AND HEAR IT.
So now it is expressed , on the internet, through my fingers. I have to let it out because i must take responsibility for myself and my own healing and my own anger. And my own inner child that i must parent. At this moment with bitterness but as i express it through typing, i know and affirm that it is out of my body and it is healed, the past has no power over me. I take my inner child and my mother that did not know how to love herself and my hungry teenager and i nourish them all with love from my heart, because I am the wise parent to myself. I am the authority and the angel of healing overlooking all time that will shed light on this dark unhappy time. And i seal it with love and light knowing that all is well in my world and i release the past forgiving my mother for not loving herself, forgiving the plastic surgeon that cut and bruised her and forgiving her for allowing herself to do this to herself and all the people that helped to make her lose faith in her own beauty and natural perfection and beauty as a woman . I forgive these people. Because I have strong shoulders. Because I am now the adult. And the child I carry my little child within me and love them and tell them that they are perfect. And they don't need to change and they don't need to be criticised and they dont need to change or be thinner , they don't need to cut but a surgeon to make them accepted in the world. They are loved . They are perfect. I am perfect. I am good enough. I love and approve of myself exactly as I am. I am healthy whole and complete. And the rwason my mother took me to a plastic surgeon when i was 13 , even though i said no, and i cried, even though I went to please her, because i loved her and still do, just so i can be told that my fat could be removed by liposuction at 13 years old. And i refused to have it done, even though she offered to pay and that her sister was angry at her for taking me and so was I. I forgive her. I forgive her because she did not know how to love herself. And in turn she did not know how to love me or to teach me how to love myself. But I firgued it out. With the help of Louise L. Hay i figured it out and I am grateful . And I love myself. I love and approve of myself. And I love my mother and i give you the love that you could not give to yourself. And I heal you , with my forgivness , with my love for you and for yourself. I heal you. And I heal me. And I set us both free. I love you always. And so it is. It is safe for me to love.
And I love and approve of myself
And all is well in my loving and beautiful world.
And so it is
And so it shall be.
God bless us all.
Love yourself.

I dont want to vote

I have just been canvassed
I prefer not to vote believing in a spiritual solution rather than a political one.
some may consider that a narrow view frankly I don't care.
I am enjoying my Saturday , I am going to see The Lion King tonight invited by my oldest friend David who stayed over last night.
I had a very strange day the other day.
I was with a healer / psychic friend of mine Kheli
we went to Govindas the Hari Krishna restaurant on Soho Street for lunch
which was lovely although expensive - £9 for some brown rice and vegetables
he confused our order too- but worth it- as i feel the food there has a high vibrational quality which i have actually felt as i have digested it. After going to Watkins books and buying an Eilat stone a watermelon tourmaline and a 2 Blue Tourmaline's (1 as a gift for my friend Lorna)
We went to an art shop and then had a coffee in the Pret near Leicester square.
It was like sitting in 10 forward on the Star Ship Enterprise I commented .
Then in walks the man with the pyramid on his head who I had to speak to of course- if not only to acknowledge the Man's bravery. His name is Dominic. I had noticed him before some years back. I would like to interview him for the film I am planning to make this year.
The pyramid it turns out was invented by the grandson of Alexander Graham Bell- THE INVENTOR OF THE TELEPHONE!!!!! Dr Fred Bell (his company Pyradyne -which is fascinating by the way-produced the pyramids)Turns out Dr Bell died a couple of years back and was a NASA scientist. The technology - Dominic told me was channeled from the Plaideans - Domininic claims it helps him to concentrate- I saw a piece of his work - turns out he is a part time illustrator- He is a very talented man- His work was great! Dominic was also wearing a very unusual cosmic pendant- again channeled alien technology through Dr Bell. which had an emerald at the centre. Dominic claimed it shields him from alot of electro-magnetic and toxic environmental pollutants. Frankly I believe the man! Dominic mentioned to me in our brief chat that he was aware of people ridiculing him and speaking about him behind his back- I commended him for his bravery which I thought was noteworthy. At this point Kheli my friend vehemently stated that she needed air and would see me outside. Kheli is no stranger to aliens. After all we both met at the Aetherius society which is Britain's oldest UFO organisation set up by a cosmic master and interplanetary avatar who channeled information from various interplanetary sources. When I went outside to join Kheli she explained that she had to get away as she could distinctly feel that Dominic had 'walk ins' which are enteties which attach themself to someone through holes in their aura. Actually they are dead people in the spirit world that have not properly crossed over. At that moment i went into my bag and I took out a prayer which i was carrying to remove entities from the environment and from the auric energy field.
She pulled me to one side on the charing cross road as i read it aloud on our way to tottenham court road station.
What was funny (apart from the man with the pyramid on his head and him walking in after I said it's like being on the star ship enterprise bar -10 forward) was that just before this quite a few strange people had been in the vicinity. There was a lady who was on the phone who was staring at me and she had very 'mermaid' /star-person (alien) hybrid qualities. I had commented to Kheli about this. Prior to this a very strange man who was doing sideways splits at the counter while ordering his coffee and farting had been in the shop. We encountered quite a few colourful characters that day to say the least. That night before going to Karaoke with Lorna and Chris another friend I watched several you tube videos on Dr Bell and others which led to some very interesting discoveries for me- particularly about UFO's time shifting and suchlike.Also about Radionics which I have previously encountered in the Aetherius society.
I have been experiencing difficult times with my mother, which i have not written much about here. Next time

Pyramid Head

today i spoke to a man with a pyramid on his head

Loving and Loveabe and deserving of ALL good!

OK so what's been happening?
Apart from signing a remix deal , attending an addiction group for over eating and realising , for the moment it's not for me as one of the criteria is admitting you are powerless and i know i am not powerless- and i refuse to affirm i am powerless when i am not- the key to overcoming compulsions is self love and i know that i need to love myself more. I am aware that my rebellion and my control issues with food stem from my mother who has a food and calorie obsession to the point that i am convinced she is an anorexic in denial, i only realised this in the last 2 years.
I am in the process of loving myself more-
Not from ego or from a point of view of vanity
i affirm I am in control - OF MYSELF and we can only ever hope to work on ourselves. I tried to fix my mothers problems, but realise it is not for me to fix. I can only work on me . On fixing me.
Through unconditional self love and unconditional love of what is. Knowing that what you resist - persits. So , I affirm:-
I am powerful
I recognise that divine spirit is operational in my life and I affirm that I make choices based on divine inspiration.
I am a magnificent expression of love and I now choose to be an empowered person .
I let go of the role of victim as this no longer serves me.
I step into a powerful vision of myself embracing all of who I am.
I affirm I am loved and loveable and I deserve ALL good.
We have an opportunity coming up with Universal records. I have affirmed for this for many years.
Evidence that I am powerful and empowered.
Success
I am successful.
I move beyond all Ego into deep inner knowing that all is in divine right order.
I am divinely guided and protected.
I forgive and I am forgiven. I move beyond denial into acceptance and fully love all the places in me that were in darkness and bring them into the light of Divine understanding
Yes I have battled addiction, yes I have battled compusion , with sex, drugs, food , spending.
I now affirm that I am a WINNER and my spirit is INDOMITABLE and I now choose a loving , faithful, free , clear life where nothing has any power over me. I have WON!
I AM THE AUTHORITY IN MY OWN LIFE. I now choose love Joy and freedom
And so it is
I love you- truly

Angels and Aliens and then off to bed...

I could feel a presence next to me, must be my guardian angel i thought , because i had done just a ritual to energetically clear the space of all low level energies called' the triple grid invocation'.
I had come back from uncle's funeral today , it was sad but beautiful and it was lovely spending time with my family members i rarely see.
I felt very grateful of my partner and how much i am loved and how much i am blessed in my life.
Today I finished the wonderful book 'Angels in my hair' by Lorna Burne, reading it on the train journey to Birmingham for the funeral.
WHAT A FANTASTIC BOOK!!!!
I highly recommend it!
I truly could not put it down.
It was a 5 am start for me and i had another 5am start the next day. With just a few hours to go.
I wanted to watch some star trek next generation. I loved to escape into my fantasy world of Sci Fi.
I had been doing it for several years. What fascinated me the most was that the creator of Star Trek - Gene Roddenberry is said to have been visited by aliens in real life.
I had heard he had had his ashes scatterd in space.
All this was so'out there'
I thought , knowing of the ridicule i would get by a lot of people for being a trekkie and speaking about Angels and Aliens.
All in a days work ;)

Moldavite Bath

I have been reading about manifestation secrets today. I just had a bath with moldavite crystals. Very powerful cleanser. I have not been detoxing. It's a long story.
I am in a good place mentally right now.
There are many changes i wish to make.
I wish for success with the manifestation of Powerlight becoming a household name.
My uncle died and his funeral is on Monday. My view on death is that it is a positive release from the illusions of this world. Of course the sadness is for the people that are left behind and the loss they feel.
I am very grateful for my life and for my health and for all my loved ones.
The 1st group of the year went very well.
We had a guest speaker a priestess of Avalon. And there was a unicorn meditation.
I love unicorns.
So beautiful.
I had a nightmare last night about 2012. I was watching too much Alien stuff and 2012 prophecy stuff on you tube. I think I learned my lesson now. I have been praying a lot so far this year.
All good.

All is well

my chin is itchy and so my chest.
I have had this for months. The doctor told me i needed a special shampoo. I bought it , it works a bit, but deep down I know i must eliminate sugar. I am going on a month detox in jan which is 1 day away.
I'm cold, it's 2.30 am and i got out of of bed compelled to write this.
Tomorrow we are having a party. My last day of excess. My body , mind soul and spirit will thank me I know.
I'm desperate to lose weight for my own well being, I will change the word desperate to 'happy to'. My uncle died this morning.
I feel glad that he is no longer suffering. And that his spirit has been released.
May he go with God and the angels.
I bless him and his family with love and ask God that comfort and peace be with all the grief stricken now.
I am sat in the dark lit up only by the lights on the Christmas tree as i write this. It's quite a romantic sort of light fitting for love. with a capital L. Love always needs a capital L because it's so important.
I think my mother is obsessed with control.
I hope I am not.
I affirm that Divine Spirit is in control and i surrender any struggles to spirit.
It is said that weight is a control issue.
I therefore surrender my control to Almighty God and ask for help from the Angelic Kingdom to guide me.
With the issue with my neighbours I surrender the situation to God and ask for a positive outcome.
I surrender my struggles with money to God and ask for abundance.
I surrender issues with my family to God and ask for peace and healing/
I surrender issues with my partner over to God ask for divine guidance, peace and claim a perfect relationship now.
I surrender all fears to the divine knowing I am safe and all is well.
I let go of old concepts of limitation and become unlimited now.
I let go of fears surrounding my home life and know and affirm that I am safe and I am always taken care of.
I let go of fears around my health and claim perfect health for myself and my loved ones now.
I and my loved ones are divinely protected.
I surround my friends , my family and all the people I love and my home with love and we are safe and divinely protected and all is well. I send love to my fears. I send love to my inner child.
I affirm that God and the angels and my higher self will nurture me with love.
Everything is taken care of and in divine right order and so it is.
I surrender to the Almighty and all is well
God never fails
All is well
And so it is

I lovingly release the need to be disturbed

It was 8.45pm and i was playing a song i recorded some years ago i had found on a cd
it was a moderate level
suddenly half way through the song loud bangs came through the ceiling from the upstairs neighbours
I immediately turned it off. Feeling terrible , Svein told me i needed to go and instantly apologise.
I went upstairs knocked on the door- no answer.
I knocked again- no answer
I wrote a note to them apologising.
I didn't realise the bass traveled up so loudly.
We had received a letter from the agent recently with a previous complaint.
I lit 2 candles and said ' i release the need to be disturbed'
I am feeling awful like i have done something terrible.
i will affirm all is well

I Lovingly release all i no longer need and I am willing to release, I AM willing to change

Christmas has come and gone and i can still feel the magic.
It was a wonderful Christmas eve and Christmas day.
My friend Julie Anne, from America, Marcus, my brother Theo and my mother and Svein and me sang, danced and played games and ate
Christmas eve we went to midnight mass.
My thoughts now are on detoxing for the new year.
I will stay focused on the reasons why.

I am a focused person
I easily manifest what I want in my life
It is easy for me to make positive changes in my life
All of my choices are divinely inspired
I am a magnet for divine inspiration
I am a magnet for success and radiant health

I am healthy wealthy and wise. All that i need comes to me
My perfect healing is taking place right now
As i sleep and wake i heal and attract only good
I attract only good at all times
I release all i no longer need with love
And so it is

More synchronicity on the path to receptivity

The beautiful Julia phoned me today, an incredible soul that is very connected to the angelic kingdom. Surely an angel in disguise. She moved to Dubai a few months ago. I'm in Robert Dyas she said
'I'm across the road' I said:- Amazing !
More Synchronicity.
So she graciously took me to the chocolate shop and bought some very very special Norwegian water which I love.
I thought I was never to see her again as the email i had for her didn't work.
She tuned into various bits of helpful information which she proceeded to tell me.(including how my idea for Crystal Clothing can work which she had had a brainwave about). We then went to the bookstore to look for an angel book she wanted to gift me, it was out of stock but she brought some important info to my atttention , It was the bookstore where my friend Lorna works. Lorna invited Svein and I to dinner and said she was going to buy us a cabinet for clothing which she knew I needed, that we had seen together. The universe is so kind and gracious. I am learning to receive. I used to find it very difficult and was more comfortable giving but I was listening to 'Divine Magic' By Doreen Virtue on CD and the teachings of the Ancient and magical Kaballion. I now understand it is as as important to receive as it is to give.
I then went to brook green & had coffee and cake with my psychic healer friend Angela .
Then we went to a pub and she bought me a glass of port. She helped me to understand how we can use psychic energy to control our responses to things.
I came home to more gingerbread making.
I am visualising success health and abundance in all areas of my life.
I set all my mental poles to maximum receptivity and I enjoy continuing abundance on every level. I am a divine magician and I claim my God given birthright that God gave to each and every one of us.The gift of manifestation.
Spread your love
Raise your vibration.
Accept What Is.
Know that you don't know
Surrender to the moment.
All is well
And so it is
Peace Peace Peace
Live In Love
I am that I am

Less Is more. Simplicity is the key!

I have just spoken with my lovely friend Veronica in Coronado, we are a little closer to visualising or actually actualising our dream of having a trans continental metaphysical TV show pilot and possible film. we will interview various spiritual pioneers and mix it with footage from my law of attraction group i am running. i feel the need to make various changes in my life. Less i feel is definitely more.
Simplicity is the key, I need to feng shui my life.
Meditate in the morning
Eat Healthy Delicious nutritious food and beverages.
exercise in ways that are fun and enjoyable to me.
Sing more
Dance More
And Enjoy life more.
Pray more and commune with nature and animals more
All the things that bring Joy and balance to my life. Like Love.
Love love love- sang the Beatles
it really is all we need
Its the key and the way. I have been giving spiritual healing alot lately. Today I gave spiritual healing to my beautiful friend who is a walking miracle. She has 2 brain tumours. She has just had a hernia operation. She has had in the past major surgery on her head. Yet she remains a healing force in this world. she is such an inspiration to me and others too. She is really a beautiful and wise soul .It was magical visiting her today, and she read a beautiful old Christmas blessing to me from a book she was drawn to on her shelf after we finished the healing session. i also chose an Angel Card, which reminded me that my Angels are always with me. As they are with you. I am so thankful for everything and everyone in my life and thankful for my life.
i spoke with my aunt whose husband is dying of brain cancer yesterday. I told her not to be afraid and to give my uncle my love. My paternal grandfather is also in hospital with various conditions and my maternal grandfather is living with prostate cancer.
Yet I write about these not to focus on them but to be thankful for the life and love and experiences we have all shared and continue to learn from. through hardship , pain , sorrow comes the most beautiful and sacred understanding, lessons and messages. It is this I aim to share in this writing.
We are all aspects of the Divine having a physical experience
Blessings of Light and Love to you
Bright, Blessings
And Rainbows. I met with my lovely mermaid friend a spiritual beauty therapist whose healing business is based on sea remedies and another holistic friend A priestess of Avalon who runs Goddess retreats to introduce them to each other. We met at the wonderful Govindas , the Hari Krishna restaurant in Soho Street.
The funny thing was , a man who calls himself Captain Jack came over to speak to mermaid friend as she was conducting her spiritual reading for us. A mermaid and a captain. It was perfect. My mermaid friend told me that the faeries hold a secret which she shared with me.
Rainbows are actually circles which continue all the way round under the earth.
I thought that was a beautiful thought.
I lead such a magical and enchanted life. I am very very VERY blessed. And grateful.
Namaste

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Magical beings from the past in the present

I'm no stranger to incarnated Angels, i seem to encounter them daily, but occasionally you have a meeting, an encounter, like today where you feel you are in the presence of a special soul, perhaps ordinary on the outside yet remarkably extraordinary beyond the veneer.
an ancient wise soul that teaches how to access the Goddess.
An opening of a dimensional portal.
Encounters orchestrated by the hand of the divine.
This abounds in my life.
In all of our lives.
Our Sacred Contracts.
Just beautiful.
How very beautiful.
I must share with you , Merlin and Unicorns seem to be featuring in my life lately.
I have a beautiful hand painted stone with a rainbow and a unicorn and a sparkling sun painted on it. Every time I see it , it makes me sooooooo happy.
I know , little things please little minds.
But it encapsulates the magic I feel connected to, outside and in.
It's not just the painted stone there are many other instances where the unicorn has been brought to my attention recently. I am off to google its meaning.
My love and light to you, dear ones :)
May the breath of life surround you with Abundance and Joy.
I am that I am.

Whirring with gratitude for the Gingerbread Mayhem

My mind is filled with the wonderful people who constantly fill my life with richness.
Who do I mention first, the man living on the breadline who has been living with HIV for 25 years who brought me presents to say thank you for all he has learned in the week that we were introduced that has helped him to see his life and every moment as a celebration, or the amazing lady from Malibu California that inspired me to gather 12 of us in a room and create a prosperity circle for her to teach us how to achieve more prosperity in our lives, or my beautiful partner for bringing members of my family and some of our friends together to bake and create gingerbread houses and decorate cards and make Christmas decorations with glitter, silver, gold & coloured paints,pine cones, twigs, and leaves facilitating the expression of our inner child while we create marzipan ornaments, golden angels, sparkling Christmas wreaths, trees and snow people.
He is downstairs recording the guitar part for our next song. The rent hasn't been paid and it's a week late but i am trusting in the universe to deliver, i have got my trusty prayer of bounty, that i need to say 108 times to manifest riches, I've done about 30, I've been up since 5am so i could do 108 tomorrow and see what it brings.
I now choose to focus on what is there rather than what is not there.
My affirmations are:
*Large Sums of money come to me easily and effortlessly

*I make money while I sleep.

For me, this IS practical.

I am taking inspired action, I did some real physical stuff too, I put 3 adverts up today 2 in supermarkets and 1 online.

I AM A MASTER MANIFESTOR
all is well.

I am grateful. :) I am rich

Thoth on the wall

I know my blog is getting weirder.
a few weeks ago i was in the foyer of the college of Psychic studies , i met a woman in her 80's who said that she knew we were there to meet each other although turns out we had never met each other before, at least in this life, i kept getting the image of a white rose, she later tells me she belongs to a mystical order called the order of the white rose which is based in egypt, this woman that can barely walk, channels Angels and Archangels and also channels the egyptian god Thoth. A week later I arranged to give her a healing session at her house. It was incredible there was a face that had manifested on the wall. It was very 3 dimensional, she said it was the face of Thoth her guide.
I photographed that. No one else has.
She showed me 2 books she has channeled which are incredible, she told me that she cannot leave the planet until this work is published. I am working on getting her and me an interview with a famous publisher. I since had a vision where an Angel and several spirit beings appeared to me and imparted psychic information to me. I know this all sounds incredible. I am in awe myself. I later realised that one of the spirit enteties that appeared to me was Thoth.
I was deeply moved by this experience.
It is difficult to put into words. But I will write more about it as time goes on. Something incredible is happening in my life. I know that i am deeply blessed.
I am very grateful.
Love to all
Namaste

Meeting Merlin

So today I met and had lunch with a friend. A man who declared to me that he channels Jeshua who is also Jesus. We met at a networking evening recently. He told me today how he is also the being Merlin.
At least a part of his consciousness is the energy that was also the magical being and wizard Merlin. I am no stranger to this type of phenomena, after all i was a member of the Aetherius Society for many years where the founder believed he was a cosmic avatar and master of the Aquarian age who was a martian being who channeled the energy that was Jesus. I believed him. so what is to stop me believing in this man as speaking the truth?
I have friends who i believe are mermaids incarnated in physical bodies, some which are fairies some are angels. Although i know some believe we all have a different star seed origin and although some people are human they are also Alien in origin or at least hybrid.
I have friends from the Plaides system , another from Cirrus, I know a unicorn who is incarnated as human. Some would have me committed i know. Sheer fantasy? That too must be considered as a reality. Yet also what is written here must also be considered as a reality. We must not close our minds to possibilities. There are things we do not know and things we do not understand. Is this the babbling of a poor deluded soul or is the writings of a wise and enlightened being. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and truth just is. Although it can also be affected by the perceiver therefore truth has different dimensions depending upon perception. Is 1 really 1 or is one really many appearing as 1 . Is 2 really 2 or is 2 1 appearing as 1. If 2 is 1 disguised as 2 . Then what of 1's energetic and ethereal body, aura, soul and psychic centres. Is this philosophy or is questioning reality and perception the inspired divine?
All things are possible in all permutations if we can be unlimited in our thinking.
Yet as mortals we are limited.
Who is to say that we are not multi dimensional beings and that there are aspects to our beings that are non physical. For me, i believe this statement as truth, therefore i experience this as my truth. Yet my truth may be different from your truth because you believe it to be so.
My Merlin friend also admitted to me that he was part reptillian. I was sensing this long before he said it to me.
So what is the truth.
You dear reader must decide.
But keep an open mind and consider all possibities for this universe is far greater than either you or i and our limited minds can comprehend.
Yet all truth is. And possibily is not. Where there is yin there is yang. Where there is Yang there is yin. Are you following or have i lost you.
All is One.
Or is it 2? Some affirmations:
I AM strong, centred and decisive
I AM divinely guided into sure decisions.
''I AM SAFE AND SECURE AND ATTRACT ONLY POSITIVE HELPFUL PEOPLE INTO MY LIFE''
I release all that no longer serves me
I am loved and lovable
and all is well
I forgive and i am free.
I transfer my pain into soul lessons and understanding.
everyone including me is doing the best that they can with the knowledge and awareness that they have.
this moment is perfect and exactly as it needs to be therefore i accept and flow with life.
I am safe
and i express ther grateness of who i am
I am a beloved child of the universe.
And so it is

I love you xxx